Balderdash · November 5, 2016 2

Balderdash: Contemporaneously

I took my family out to dinner.

I spent weeks calling Andrea so we could get to know each other. One day a thought hit me like a ton of bricks; a couple of thoughts, actually. I’m not gonna accomplish much on the phone. Honestly? It’s still weird. I don’t know whether it’s because neither of us are phone people or what, but it’s still kinda awkward. When I’m over there, I’m visiting my son. She and I talk for a few minutes of course, but we both understand how important my time with him is, so we try not to interfere with that much.

Another thought I was I don’t think this phone thing is helping—at least I don’t feel like we’ve made any progress. I mean, really…what does finding out facts and memorizing them really do? Yes, I know more about her than I did, but I still don’t know her like I should. There is so much more to her than the facts I learn. Behind those beautiful green eyes are feelings, thoughts…a person. I need to get in her world…see her in person more…how she responds to things; and she needs to experience me too. I think that’ll definitely help her trust me more. I mean, how can you trust a voice over the phone? My first thought was to ask her out. Not really on a date, but something casual like a movie or a bite at the diner. I knew that would freak her out though; it would be too much too fast for her.

Another thought hit me. I don’t know where all these deep thoughts came from. Mama says it’s part of getting older. I think maybe I hit the bubble blower a bit too hard, he he. Anyway, I was thinking about her world, and that includes lil’ man. He’s part of my world too. I want our worlds to collide. Maybe if she saw me in her world more often she’ll come around…not that I’m trying to rush or force her of course. That’ll be the quickest way to sabotage any progress we make. So, I invited them to have dinner with me. I hope to have more family times like this more often. It’ll be good for us. At the very least, I know Emmanuel will be stoked.

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